Diana is an animal communicator, energy worker and intuitive living and working in The Netherlands. She is a beautiful soul, and if you are in her area then you really must meet her. Diana did my Magic by eMail program a couple of weeks ago and I asked her to share her impressions of the process what it did for her. This is what she sent me.
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I have had a long period of not giving myself time to live through everything that happened in my life. This period ended in my graduating the education I had been doing the previous 5,5 years and officially opening up my own practice, and a week later saying goodbye to one of our old dogs. And then there was nothing. The joy and pride of finishing my education, finally starting my own biz and the grief of losing our dog just left me with this big empty hole. Feelings and emotions were coming up and I wasn’t able to express them, not able to share them with my friends, family or husband because of the expectations I thought they had of me. And I didn’t understand why things always ended up the same. Me being insecure, not understanding why people rarely listened to my advice. I started to question all I had done and was doing. The sparkle, or Magic, had disappeared from my life. I felt lonely and scared. I didn’t want to end up in a depression as I had in the past.
But then I thought, I have to do something about it, and I need help. I wanted someone who approaches things in a positive and loving way, someone to point me in the right direction but not make me do things I did not want to do. As I had worked with Joanna before I decided to participate in the Magic by Email program. 5 days of guided messages for me. We made an appointment for the third week of February.
The first thing I was asked to do was to write down everything that I felt needed to get out. And I did. I closed my eyes and just poured out everything that came on paper (email). Kind of like in a dear diary way, but now someone was going to read it. I let go of the fear of really letting out what was there. I needed help and I asked for it. So it had to go out. And in writing it down a lot more came out than I ever imagined.
Then Joanna’s reply came. And I read the first lines. And the first thing I did was cry incessantly for half an hour. And then I was able to start reading again, the whole reply. And I started to understand. Started to realise where this all came from. Why things repeatedly came onto my path. Why people reacted to me like they did. Why I was afraid to be happy, to shine, to stand out. It felt like a huge darkness lifted from my soul and I could really see sunshine again. I hadn’t realised I let this darkness in, and didn’t make time to let it out, it just added and added until I didn’t see a way out anymore. Joanna’s guidance showed me that way out.
It also showed me that things that happened to me in the past should be left there, in the past.
They made me into who I am today and I started to feel thankful for the lessons, for paving the way for me to be able to do what I do now. I was in a state, I basically blamed my past and the people in my past and present for what was going on today. I realised it was me and only me that had influence on this. It was up to me to start living in the now and to take back responsibility for my own life.
During the next days more and more blocks came up, and Joanna showed me why those blocks were there.
Why I was so insecure, why I held myself back, made myself small, felt responsible for everybody’s happiness but my own. I did not feel important enough to really get out there, to stand for what I do, my talents and what I believe in. This is a process of growth and it is still ongoing. It is scary to get out there when you have been hiding for so many years. Babysteps is the way up.
Joanna showed me to trust my intuition again, my guides, to use affirmations (I am enough!), to get out of the downwards spiral I had been in. That I should be proud of what I had accomplished but that I am not a product of my education, these are merely tools to support my intuitive abilities. And to not let the being proud part be influenced by others people’s compliments.
The process showed me to take another look at my biz.
Was I doing what I love or doing what people expected of me? What I had started to think was the way it should be done, because this is how I learned it in school and this is how I should live, by the rules and regulations in our country. This big issue also came out, I was so worried what others thought of me, that in discussions I already started out in defensive mode. I felt I needed to defend what I do and why I do it. And this showed up in my work too. I started to think about doing things differently for my biz, more from the me, instead of from what I had learned in school and society.
I am still working on things but from a different perspective. I have turned around how I approach things, I look at myself instead of others or my past. In my personal relationships I let go of wanting to change the other, I can’t do that. I can only change myself and my approach to things. I discovered that I judge others on how they do things, and am learning to no longer do that either. And in doing all this my relationships will change anyway.
So, Magical Emails, it’s true.
Magic will start flowing again as long as you let it and dare to be open and honest.
Magic will start flowing again as long as you let it and dare to be open and honest.If you want to let go of things that are holding you back, of if you feel stuck in any part of your life, do this. It will help you make a breakthrough.
Currently I am working with Joanna on my bizz, and a lot of things that came up in this process are returning there. It is scary sometimes, but I choose to be happy now, and do things I want to do. And the things I have to do I approach differently. Things are so much clearer and lighter already!
It really is amazing how five days, and five emails back and forth can make a change and set in motion the things that need to happen to claim back your happiness. And yes, it really is a joy to see these emails in your inbox.
Joanna’s guidance is based on love, respect, positivity and letting you find out that everything you need to succeed is already there. It just wants to come out, and will if you let it 🙂
Love and light,
Diana
My name is Diana van Trijffel-Pak, I live in the Netherlands with my husband, 2 dogs and 2 cats. I am an animal therapist specialised in natural medicine, animal communication and healing. I am currently personalizing my biz to make it into my own unique concept. You can find me here (in Dutch only).
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